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Life.

2011-09-24T06:58:00.001-07:00

Helluuu!
ikr its been a veh long time since i posted.
so the title sum everything up.
life recently is quite tough.
studies, relationship and others.
but yeah, i ain't gonna give up.
i want to prove to whoever out there who told me tht i can't do something, they are hell wrong.
im going to study hard,i promise as i can't stand to see my parents get dissapointed looking at my results.
lastly,
im going to live my life to the fullest so tht i won't have any regrets at the end of the day.

eccacurly :)

you know what?

2011-06-15T02:49:00.000-07:00

bounjor !

see that girl.

that happy girl.

i want to be like her again.

the happy girl who loves to study and never give up in life.

who went through alot and finally,

have the chance to say 'i made it' with a smile one her face.

yeah.

i miss the old me.

i want to be who i am and NOT who people wants me to be.

i know in this world, there is going to be alot of people that is going to say you suck

and trying to bring you down.

but you knw wht?

you just have to believe in yourself and continue doing what you love.

and yeah,

i guess what haziqah says is true.

you got to love what you are doing and then, everything will fall as it is.

i guess that is what i have been lacking and why i did not do well for my MYE.

i lose my love for studying.

i still remember how i come back from school so eager to do my homework

eventhough how tired i was.

i want that love back.

i have no idea where it is.
but im going to find it back no matter what.

and im going to work hard and make my mum proud (:

but mostly, make myself proud (':

p.s

HAPPY BURFDAE RONY !

tillhere~

`eccatardd!

stronger.

2011-06-11T05:35:00.000-07:00

i must be strong to go through all these challenges.

NEW & BETTER ME.

2011-06-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

SAY HELLO TO THE NEW ME :D

frm now onwards,

im going to be:

1. more nice to people especially my family (':

2.never skip my prayers.

3.avoid gossiping eventhough its going to be hard.

4.show the people who says i can't do something to watch out cos im

gonna prove them wrong.

5.work hard and never give up.

cos im feeling super gulity as i dissapoint my mum as i got 53% for my MYE.

ikr so baddddd.

haishhh.

so yeah, i promise to myself that im going to work hard cos i hate it that i fail

knowing that deep inside i can do better than this )':

dear mum,

im sorry if i have dissapoint you and i knw you were shocked cos this is my

first time doing so badly for my studies.

im so sorry mum.

i will work hard and make you proud again.

i promise (':

6.be myself and be more open to new things instead of

sticking to the things that im comfortable.

which basically means i must come out frm my comfort zone (:

tillhere~

`eccatardd!

broken arrows.

2011-05-14T06:43:00.000-07:00

Hong Kong here i come :D

and,

beastly was an awesome movie!

i love alex pettyfer :D

withlove, afiqah.

ur one in a million.

2011-05-08T06:29:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY & HAPPY BURFDAE MAMA !

dear mum ,

sorry if i have any wrongdoings that i did to you ):

and no matter what,

ur still the best mum in earth and surely ur one in a million :')

p.s hope you like the flowers i give you and i will work hard for my MYE to make you proud and happy :D

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

my love .

2011-04-22T23:23:00.000-07:00

I LOVE CONOR MAYNARD :D

2011-04-08T07:30:00.000-07:00

Just stop for a minute and smile (:

life .

2011-03-13T01:41:00.000-08:00

ann nyoung :D

im so jealouuus :b

hmphh .

izalia , dumb , li yun and haziqah went to korea !

walamak .

afiqah veh the jealous D:

hahhah .

i hope they are having fun and most importantly ,

they are safe (:

when they come back ,

im going to give them a bigbigbigbig hug .

lol .

and yeah ,

last friday ,

we had our sport carnivallll ! :D

but the weather spoilt our mood .

but overall , i enjoy myself :D

thumbs up to scmc \m/

and yeah ,

for these past few months ,

i feel like im slacking alott .

its so obvious .

i mean my result are bad .

and i got two F9 in my report book )':

but yeah ,

i deserved it .

i mean i dint even put any effort .

tsktsktsktsk me .

im going to work hard for the next coming exam,

clear any doubts straightaway instead of delaying it

and ,

NO MORE SLACKING .

and yeah ,

you knw wht ?

i dont need you in my life .

wht i truly need is my awesome bestfriends (':

i love you guys forever and ever \m/

tillhere~

`eccatardd !

im a pushover .

2011-02-24T04:05:00.000-08:00

konichiwa !

so yeah ,

this is going to be an emotional post .

today i realised something .

i care too much about people around me .

i will do anything just to make people happy eventhough im not .

ughh , this sucks .

why can't i even be happy for a moment ?

why must my happiness exist for a short while ?

why can't i be normal and happy like everyone ?

why must i care too much bout people and not myself ?

ughh , i sucks .

you knw wht ?

one day , i will stop caring about people and for once, be selfish for myself (':

tillhere~

`ecctardd !

2011-02-22T20:01:00.000-08:00

.LIVELAUGHLOVE.

just say fuck it and smile .

2011-02-02T01:03:00.000-08:00

ann nyoung ! :D

i love the photo especially my retro clothes and the owl necklace :b

i was just really near to getting the taylor swift concert )':

bt its okay .

if justin bieber comes to singapore ,

i will be the first one to buy (:

you kwn wht ?

i want to go to somewhere tht is peaceful .

really .

life is super hectic nowdays .

im physically and mentaly veh tired ):

homeworks are pilling up , emotions are super unstable .

i cant get veh sad out of a sudden ):

ughhh ,

i just need a break from everything (':

and thts why ,

i want to go to japan (:

its part of the school-exchange program !

please please , i wanttttttt gooooooooooo :D

and yeah ,

im going to BBQ with my awesome-z & gila-z cuzzies and families this saturday :D

heheh .

i want to take alot of photossss ! (:

andand ,

laughsmilelaughsmilelaughsmilelaughsmile :D

lastly ,

happy chinese new year (:

tillhere~

`eccatardd !

cinta monyet .

2011-01-28T06:18:00.000-08:00

ann nyoung !

this is going to be a reallyreallyreally short post :D

note to myself :

think positive and control my anger .

lastly ,

i think im kinda falling for this one guy :D

hahah :b

bt yeah ,

its just cinta monyet (:

tillhere~

`eccatardd !

IZZZANNNNNN ! :D

2011-01-23T19:48:00.000-08:00

bounjour ! (:

so yeah ,

camp was kinda awesome :D

but yeah ,

ANCO is still the best !

p.s sorry no photos :b

i dint bring my camera or hp .

so yeah , no photos people .

let's talk bout yesterday .

so yeah ,

yesterday im officially a sergeant !

hahha .

hello sergeant siti afiqah :D

happy to the max .

and yeah ,
i sit beside birthday girl , AINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNI !
hahah .

funneh la tht girl .

she and her cap witwit :b

after tht ,

was the disco party :D

hahah nw i knw how it feels like to party :b

my entire body is aching ):

cos i keep dancing and jumping :b

and yeah ,

yesterday was just ,

one word :

AWESOMEEEEEE !

i will surely treasure those moments (':

i just miss ANCO )':

and yeah .

see tht two photos ?

hahah .

1980 la me :b

and tht guy beside me ?

he's my guy best friend when we're in primary school .

soo happy to meet him .

i mean i kinda miss him .

my childhood friend la seh :D

*makin handsome eh ^^ *

tillhere~

`eccatardd !

its the best , i swear (':

2011-01-17T04:27:00.000-08:00

an nyoung ! (:

p.s

i love 2pm :D

hahah ikr .

last time , i dont like k-pop .

bt nahh , nt now (:

i bet , nad will be like ,

'i knew it la ! '

when she read this .

haha .

she have always tried to influence me into k-pop (:
and yeah ,

you succeeded :b

so yeah ,

camp is in 2 more days !

woohoooo~

lol .

actually part of me is like , enthu bout it cos get to bond with my new classmates .

but another part of me , isn't :/

bt hopefully ,

it will be the best camp in my life .

kay nt really .

first is the ANCO camp :D

maybe , the second best camp in my life :D

*cross fingers*

so tht means ,

i will nt be updating this blog for 3 or 4 days .

since im gone for 3 days and 2 night (:

but , who cares right ?

oh yeahh ,

im still nt officially a sergeant until 23rd january :D

HEHE .

i was so happy when i knew it (:

for tht period of time ,

its the best , i swear .

i dint regret a single bit (':

and yeah ,

im going to throw my insecurities far far away from me !

i promise (':

tillhere~
`eccamaynard !

just a dream .

2011-01-16T01:02:00.000-08:00

an nyoung !

ikr .

its been quite a while since i updated :b

sorryy .

been very busy :/

see the photo ?

hahah .

i cut bangs !

yeahh people (:

so yeahh ,

life's have been chaotic .

in every way .

and yeah ,

i guess i will be inactive for quite sometimes .

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

i love you .

2011-01-05T19:18:00.000-08:00

an nyoung ! (:

the picture is totally random :b

you knw right , when boredom strikes .

so yeah ,

i dint went to school today :b

since im having food poisoning :/

actually ,

i've been having it since yesterday .

( my awesome-ness bithday :b )

but yeah ,

i've been enduring it

bt nahh ,

nt today :b

ikr , i keep having food poisoning .

and yeah ,

i know today ,

its the third day of school reopens .

bt ,

i already feel like slacking :o

ughh .

WAKE UP AFIQAH !

*slap my face*

maybe afterall ,

you do means alot to me eventhough how much i deny it .

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

i swear , it was the best birthday i ever had (':

2011-01-05T04:14:00.000-08:00

an nyoung ! (:

so yeah ,

today was AWESOMEEEEE !

im speechless for words again :b

and im so happy tht i whipmycurlyhairbackandforth ! (:

and yeah ,

im so curly-licious ! :b

thank you so much guys for the wishes and presents (:

especially the BIRTHDAY BASH !

*photos above (: *

kay lol .

its soo unexpected :b

and yeah ,

thanks for the pranks !

make me panic for nothing eh !

perangai cap :b

so yeah ,

its the best and awesomeessss birthday in my life !

i swear (:

ofc ,

i will treasure these moments forever (':

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

love .

2011-01-04T01:57:00.000-08:00

helllooooooo (:

so yeah ,

tomorrow is a BIGBIGBIGBIGBIGBIGBIGBIG DAY for me (:
* figure out urself :b *

and you knw wht ?

im just speechless for words .

tillhere~

`ecca maynard !

2010-12-31T00:11:00.000-08:00

GOODBYE 2010 (':

AND

2011 HERE I COME (:

Goodbye 2010 (':

2010-12-30T20:59:00.000-08:00

an nyoung (:

ikr .

today is the last day of 2010 .

im half happy and sad :(:

i mean this year ,

have taught me really alot of stuff .

like being strong and tht life will never be a fairytale eventhough how much i hope it is.

and yeah ,

i have been knocked down by bitches and jerks ,

i cried ,

i hate myself ,

i was depressed ,

bt at last ,

i was able to pull through it and im proud of myself for tht (':

*p.s i guess , if i were to keep my tears , it can fill up a fish tank :b*

bt most of all ,

i was able to pull it through cos of my friends ,
they are the pillar to my strength (':

*photos above*

rachel :-

i known you for only 2 years but , you know me to well . you can easily knw tht im sad eventhough how much i tried to hide it away with my fake smile . you were always there for me through thick and thins (: i can easily tell you my problems and secrets :D

you scold me everytime i fall for a guy and sometimes , i was pissed by tht .

bt i knw tht deep inside you dont want me to get hurt easily .

cos im type tht fall in love easily :/

ur like a mother to me !

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww (':

i love you .

naddie short :-

ur my one and only gossip partner la ! hahaha . we always share the same thought . *p.s except for korean stuff*

i still remembered tht you were the one who helped me to pull through when i was having depression .

you dint give up on me when the only thing i kept saying was fml fml fml fml .

you keep pushing me to be stong and fearless like you .

sometimes , im just envy at you on how can you be strong and fearless when you feel as if the world had knock you down (':

awwwwwwww right ?

you really must be a counselor :b

and ,

just kick ur brothers' ass if they ever make you sad or mess up with you kay (Y)

i love you .

fuzzy :-

when i first saw you in sec 1 , i was like 'this must be a very shy and good girl'

then , when i know you .

BOOOOOOMMM !

you were the total opposite . you are sooo talkative and nt shy at all .

you taught me to not be shy . i still remembered i was so shy in sec 1 , bt nt now .

all thanks to you eh retard (:

i bet when ur reading this , you will be like , 'fuzzy mah '

and yeah ,

you always make me laugh like an idiot .

until everyone call me a retard :/

hahah .

we can simply talk crap , be evil and laugh like nobody business .

nt even caring who's around us (:

gerek eh babe !

i love you .

praveen :-

IDIOTTT !

hahah ur favourite word :b

ur the one who i can talk crap all day and can still continue until the day after (:

you always make me laugh with ur stupid , funny and sometimes lame jokes . you were always there when i need help in my studies . i admit tht ur clever kay (:

ur always nt happy with people . i still dont know why .

but , i love ur face reactions (:

SUPER EPIC :B

hahaha .

and yeah , eventhough i always scold you when ur singing cos its super irritating ,

dont stop singing kay .

and lastly , ROCK ON \m/

and you still owe me mcspicy :/ hahaha !

i love you .

farzana :-

when i first met you , i was scared . hahaha .

so fierce siol this girl !

bt sadly , i infuenced you to be more hyper and nt serious at all times .

haha , i knw i very good influence (:

ur another one tht i can talk crap and crap and crap and crap .

lol endless crap !

you always disturb me and when i shout , everyone will be angry at me :/ when actually its ur fault. hahaha . ur forgiven :b

and you always help me in .....

you knw i knw (:

and yeah ,

continue to rock on kay babe \m/

i love you .

dakshaini :-

DUMB SIOL !

ur so dumb tht you blow my mind :b hahahah .

you and ur dumbness can never ever make me nt laugh (:

haha im done here .

if i were to say ur dumbness , it will be super longgggggggg (:

i love you .

ameesha :-

one word :

GEREK SIOL !

ur the one and only person tht i can talk the minahhhh way :b hahahah (:

thank so much for being protective of me (':

i still remembered tht you were pissed off cos they keep disturbing me .

awwwwwwwwww (:

i love you .

haziqah :-

ur so sensitive !

haha like me :b

and ur a unique person . trust me . dont ever changed cos someone is not happy with it kay (: just be who you are .

and , next year ,

please do your homework and stop running away from the teachers !

its so funneh when you tried to hide behind me so tht the teacher wont see you and ask for your homework . tsktsktsktsk .

nehmind , next year i will make sure you do ur homework eventhough we are of different class .

idc ! (:

and i love hakiki :b kaykay la . i stop teasing bout ur adik :b

haha .

i love you .

izalia :-

i know you have problem with my existance :b

hahaha ! ur so shyy ! omg .

i will make sure tht next year you wont be so shy kay .

nahi2 good .

and , dont act innocent la :/ hahha jk eh .

i love you .

*p.s stop rebonding ur hair ! go and perm it kay (: *

and lastly ,

thank you so much for making 2010 an amazing year (:

without you guys , idk wht will happen to me .

maybe , i will be a loner :b

hahaha (:

eventhough ,

next year we won't be in the same class ,

you guys must always knw tht ,

i will always be there for you guys (:

and surely ,

i will treasure those moments (':

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

fearless (':

2010-12-29T17:54:00.000-08:00

an nyoung ! (:

tht's a random picture btw :b

so yeah ,

good things always ends very fasst .

like reall fast .

how i wish i can just stop the time ):

so yeah ,

i wanna tell you guys ,

appreciate those people or things before they're gone (':

kay ?

and yeah ,

yesterday FLAG DAY was awesome baby ! :D

hahaha .

met alot of funneh people :b

so ,

today plan :

CHALLLEEETTTTTT WITH AWESOME 1996 BATCH (:

yeah rock on \m/

pictures pictures , here i come :b

oh yeah ,

i want and will be strong and fearless .

so tht ,

no bitches and jerks can ever ever knock me down again (:

maybe afterall ,

i guess what i really need in my life is my family and friends (':

yeahh .

eventhough sometimes ,

i act really shitty to you guys .

you must always know ,

its nt on purposed .

and that,

i love you guys forever and ever (':

and you know wht ?

sometimes in life ,

you fall in love for the unexpected person and sometimes ,

it occurs during the unexpected and wrong times .

bt no matter wht ,

treasure those moments (':

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

dumb me .

2010-12-28T02:11:00.000-08:00

you knw wht?
to the people who ever said tht im dumb ,
ur right .
i am dumb .
to repeat the same mistakes over and over again .
do you knw there's a difference ?
between someone who made a mistake and learn from it and someone who made a mistake and never learnt from it .
yeahh , im the second one .
ughhh )':
i really wish tht i wont end my 2010 in such a depressing way .
please )':
i just cant stop crying for these few days .
please , i dont want to go through depression again .
it was really a nightmare for me .
ughh ,
maybe after all , this is my fault .
yeahh , for being dumb and naive .
FML .
i think this is wht i got when i ignore reality and get mix up in my own world )':

ughh , im done here .
maybe , im going to private this blog real soon .

tillhere~
`eccamaynard !

im lazy (:

2010-12-26T15:52:00.000-08:00

helloooooo :D

ikr , its been quite a long since i updated .

sorry dah :b

so recently ,

life was awesome and also quite depressing .

ughh .

i dont want to talk bout it for nw .

ikr .

when you see me , you can never knw tht actually deep inside im suffering (':

bt its okay .

soo ,

let's change the topic before i get more emotional (:

so yeahh ,

i guess im sooo ready to go back to school (:

haha , wht a lie right ?

nahhh .

homeworks are still nt done .

im so lazy (:

and yeah ,

noober bought me a necklace ! (:

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG !

itso niceeeeee .

thank you so mucccccchhhhhhh noober :D

andandandandandnandnand ,

you know wht ?

you mean alot to me .

reallly .

ur the best thing ever tht i can ever ask for (':

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

you know what , i love you (':

2010-12-21T04:55:00.000-08:00

an nyoung (:

kay wait .

that photo was taken on the last day of theory course (':

ILOVEANCO :D

soo yeahh ,

have you ever felt sad and wanted to talk to someone but ,

ur afraid if that person will nt understand you ?

that's what im feeling right nw )':

ikr .

im sooo dumb .

i know my friends are there for me .

they are the one best thing in my life (':

but yeah ,

i just feel insecure ):

how can i ever erase this negative feeling in me ?

its really like killing me .

imagine ,

without you realising it , ur actually crying .

just out of sudden .

yeahh ,

im experiencing that .

ikr .

before i sleep , i will think of negative stuff and start to cry all over again .

maybe , people mistaken me for being too dramatic .

but yeah ,

what to do ?

my life is dramatic .

tillhere ~

`eccamaynard !

the best thing ever (':

2010-12-18T05:43:00.000-08:00

HIIIII PEOPLE ^^

im backkk :D

let's start off with me going to genting (:

so yeah ,

like i expected .

GENTING WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

and i can't stand the coldness .

haha serious .

when i get out off the bus ,

i was like 'woah'

so cold :b

andand ,

the theme park was (Y)

serious .

i love the spinner alot (:

its like a swing just that its higher and it go around in a circle :D

simply awesome (:

and seriously ,

i really get to calm and relax myself there ,

and that was the best thing ever ! (':

since 2010 was reallyreally a drama year for me,

since the starting of the year .

2011 , please be kind to me (:

*sorry for the few pictures , all the other photos is at fb :b *

so yeah ,

holidays going to end veryveryveryvery soon ):

ikr .

so fast :/

homeworks are still not done .

i just refused to do it (:

and rachel my awesome bestfriend went to India !

omg im so sad )':

i mean no one to scold me when im i did somthing wrong .

no one to call me nonsense , stupid , idiot .

ughh ,

i miss her so much )':

and yeah ,

love sucks .

tillhere~
`eccamaynard !

miss me kay (:

2010-12-11T19:23:00.000-08:00

AN NYOUNG ! :D

kay wait .

sorry for the previous post .

ikr , vulgar including the photo .

andand ,

im really starting to miss ANCO )':

really .

omg .

yesterday was the last day of the entire course .

i was so sad )':

i mean this course has really taught me alot of stuff .

and ,

the best part ,

i learn to make new friends and not to be anti-social or shy anymore (:

i mean they are really awesome and friendly people :D

i love them (:>

and ikr ,

i look small at one of the pictures .

and yeah ,

that's joey .

cute right she ?

hahah :b

and yeah ,

today i officially going genting !
in less than 10 hour .

ikr .

very fast :D

and of course ,

im going to miss everyone here at singapore (':

especially ,

my awesome besties :D

and praveen have promise me to belanja me mcspicy when i get back .

awww .

watchout if you don't :b

and everyone is asking me to buy stuff for them .

lolol .

kaykay .

i'll try my best (:

and idk why ,

i think im being mean .

to someone .

im really sorry .

if i knew this from the start , i wouldn't do what im doing now .

im so sorry )':

and going to genting is what i really need right now )':

i just need an escape from reality for now .

after all the drama i went through this year .

and people ,

don't miss me kay :D

hahha .

and i will update after i come back with all the photos :D

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

fuck you _l_

2010-12-10T01:55:00.000-08:00

yeahh .

FUCK YOU _l_

i mean it .

ugh .

i really don't know who should i be pissed with .

with myself or with you ?

fml la .

really :/

what's up with me ?

why can't i learn from my mistakes ?

im so dumb .

ugh .

that's it .

im done .

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

escape from reality (:

2010-12-08T18:55:00.000-08:00

BONJOUR ! :D
so yeah ,
today gonna be a short post .
just now ,
chat with farzana and we were busy discussing what kind of hair we want for the new year .
hahah .
epic la .
she showed me a photo and its like short and botak on ther other side and i said to her ,
might as well botak right ?
and yeah ,
i think i have decided on bangs .
the 'senget' one .
and i think bob hairstyle suits farzana the most .
nehmind .
just wait and see on school reopens .
andand ,
i really can't wait to go genting .
haha ikr .
andand ,
i do realised that i fight for what i believe and sometimes, i do admit it somehow hurts people feelings.
so yeah ,
im sorry guys )':
i will do somwthing bout it .

tillhere~
`eccamaynard!

(:

2010-12-07T23:39:00.000-08:00

AN NYOUNG :D

yeah yeah yeah im back ~

so yeah ,

like i said , im going to post today .

UGH .

HOLIDAY GOING TO END REALLY FAST ):

and ,

4 MORE DAYS TO GENTING BABY ~
WOOHOOO :D

AT LAST , ESCAPE FROM EVERYTHING FOR A MOMENT .

kay wait .

when i get there ,

im going to take alot of photos (:

and two words :

be crazy !

and yeah ,

let's talk bout camp (:

make alot of new friends and they are really an awesome bunch of people (:

love them truckloads .

and ikr ,

its kinda crazy to miss a training camp .

but yeah ,

i really miss it (':

and wait ,

I kind of am a little interested in this one guy (:

tillhere~

`ecca maynard!

BACK ~

2010-12-07T00:51:00.000-08:00

AN NYOUNG !

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMGOMG !

IM BACK FROM ANCO CAMP :D

but yeah ,

im still tired ):

so yeah ,

i wont be blogging today .

sorry dah .

and wait ,

hater gonna hate .

whatever .

_l_

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

GENTING HERE I COME (:

2010-11-30T18:22:00.000-08:00

BONJOUR (:

kay wait .

i miss them .

like really alott )':

especially the krazy times we had together like cracking stupid jokes , crapping bout stupid stuff , laughing at every little things and alotalotalot more (:

and although next year ,

we are no longer in the same class .

i will still love you guys like before ,

and always remember that,

you guys are the one that i can't live without :D

hope to see you guys soon (':

and yeah ,

im going to GENTING BABY !

hahahha .

ikr .

its my first time .

and i want to feel how cold it is since i've been experiencing summer like forever .

so now ,

winter here i come ,

but without the snow (:

so yeah ,

i will be gone for a few days cos of camp ._.

and ,

duhhh ,

this blog gonna be dead ):

but who cares ?

since no one reads it (:

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

I whip my hair back and forth

2010-11-30T04:22:00.000-08:00

AN NYOUNG ! :D

im back people ~

kay wait .

I WHIP MY HAIR BACK AND FORTH !

im addicted to that phrase (:

hahah .

so cooooooooooooool :D

andand , 3 more days to camp .

aiyahh .

I cannot go to tumblr and update .

but nehmind :B

cos , i can lose weight ~

wooohooo~

and wait,

i love my platoon mates (:

APLHA FTW !

kay ,

tomorrow going lib with nad and maybe going watefront afterwards .

kay im done here .

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

MAGIC IN ME (:

2010-11-25T20:20:00.000-08:00

an nyoung !

that's hello in korean language (:

so today ,

is just a typical day as usual .

except that im having flu that causes my nose to turn superduperh red ,

and my eyes hurt too .

aiyah ._.

pisture is totally rwandom .

and yeah ,

rachel coming over to my house to clean my room .

wooohooo~

hahah .

not actually clean but lookout for my things ,

cos i have the urged to keep all my stuffs eventhough its no longer in used .

example :

i still keep my kindergarden report book :/

hahah .

ikr .

dumb .

but yeah , i value sentimental stuffs .

and someone is really irritating me .

-.-

kay wait .

just now , i went to look at all my previous post .

and i am so happy that ,

i was able to go through all the challenges i faced .

and i want to thank NURUL NADHIRAH BINTE HAMDAN the most .

as she was always there for me .

HAHHA .

THANK YOU BESTIE :D

andandandand ,

camp is really around the corner .

omgomgomg .

i can't wait to lose weight :D

HAHHA .

tillhere~

`eccamaynard!

define love .

2010-11-25T04:22:00.000-08:00

IKR .

this is my second post (:

but ,

what to do ?

im bored ttm and there's no one that i can really talk to .

so yeah ,

blog here i come .

and waitt , i went into triple science class .

yeahhh .

im in 3/6 .

ikr .

im dumb .

even people's reation when i tell them was like :O

aiyah .

fyi , i never wanted to join triple science .

seriously .

my aim was only double science .

and the sad-ed part ,

is that im not even in the same class with one of my closest friends ):

ughhhh .

andand ,

i watched LAGENDA BUDAK SETAN .

omg .

its so touching that i kept going 'awwwwww'

and also very sad .

seriously ,

when i was wacthing ,

it somehow makes me hate guys .

the way he treat the girl in the movie .

and how naive the girl is eventhough the guy treat him how badly .

but ,

the best part was that ,

there's this guy who still loves the girl eventhough she looks different and after she leaves him .

awwww right ?

and recently ,

my uncle died .

and i knew it right after my ANCO .

i literally break down .

its sooo sad :'(

i stil remember when i met him few weeks ago and now ,

he's gone .

really fast .

is that how fast people comes and go ?

tillhere~

`eccamaynard !

no boy is worth ur teenage years.

2010-11-24T20:20:00.000-08:00

konichiwa :D

kay wait .

do anyone realised that time flies so fast ?

that its already the ending to November .

OMG .

and that i haven't do anything that is productive yet .

so yeah ,

yesterday i cried myself to sleep again :'(

its so unhealthy .

ikr .

i was thinking of what happened last year .

i shouldn't have fallen for that .

seriously .

although its been one year plus , i kept thinking of it .

its literally haunting me back .

ughhh .

im so stupid .

and hayley williams is right ,

no boy is worth ur teenage years.

andand ,

i think im being stalk .

seriously .

ughh .

its really irritating when you don't know who is it and ,

that person keep posting stuff .

FYI :

I REALLY MISS MY AWESOME AND NOOBERS FRIENDS :'(

tillhere~

`eccamaynard(:

ecca maynard !

2010-11-21T17:58:00.000-08:00

HELLLO (:
i know this blog is dead and no one reads it .
but , its okay .

so yeah ,
im in love with conor maynard !
omg , his voice is totally awesome !

and yeah ,
last friday , results were released .
Unexpectedly , i got into triple science .
and i cried ._.
ikr .
very silly .
but yeah , my new classmates seems very competitive .
i really wanted DNT and double science .
so , next year is so going to be study hard and play lesser .
so not, my motto .
and ,
im so going to cherish my moments from today to december .

someday , i wish i can go to a place where i can go and relax my mind and no one can disturb me .

with love ,
ecca maynard !

Fireworks .

2010-11-14T04:03:00.000-08:00

HIEEEEEE !
so yeah , im reallyreallyreally back now .
hahahha .
its been really long since i updated .
idk why , but today i feel like blogging .

so let's start off with my dearest lil cousin .
she was born on 11/11/10 .
cool date right ?
her name is NAIMA NADYNE !
I LOVE HER (:
and im thinking of babysitting her as a part-time job XD

andand ,
i thought that everything was over last year .
but , it haunt me down again .
sucks much .
why must he appear again right before my face ?
ugh .

and next year , im planning to be a better me .
hahahahhaha .

and yeah ,
im nt too active here .
i've been busy on tumblr (:

and ,
fuck love , im riding solo .

with love ,
eccatardd~

2010-10-01T01:17:00.000-07:00

hello !
i know its been very longlonglonglong since i update my blog (:
haha sorry .

so ,
next week is already exam .
im really disspointed with my common test 2 and i am going to wotk veryvery hard .
i know its quite late .
but , its either now or never .
right ?

and i feel sad and guilty cos i made someone dissapointed in me .
when , that person is always the one that gives me motivation inmy studies .
im so sorry .
and im going to work hard .
i promise .

and i wanna wish every good luck for the EOY exam ! (:

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

2010-08-16T04:50:00.000-07:00

INACTIVE .

DEAD BLOG .

2010-08-09T18:00:00.000-07:00

HELLLO !
i know its like sososososo long since i update this DEAD BLOG .
:D

so yeah ,
alot of stuffs happened all this while .
and day by day ,
im starting to appreciate things for what they are .
and im glad .

andand ,
im shifting in 1 more month .
OHEMMGEE .
andand ,
i just can't clean my house .
cos my sensitive nose will start to *haaaccccuuuuummmmmmm*
and i will get rashes due to the dust .
aiyo2 .

i really must learn the meaning of don't care .
seriously .
i think too much .
i worry over small stuff .
and i get paranoid easily .
andand ,
all this is causing me stress .
till i got to eat anti-stress pill .
like what right ?
arghh .

and i realised everyone around me is changing .
EVERYONE OF THEM .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

RAINNNNN !

2010-07-30T01:32:00.000-07:00

helllooooooooo !
isn't he hot ?
hoho :B
<3

YOU RAWK MY SOCKS

2010-07-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

HELOOOOO PEOPLE !

i know i have abandoned this blog .

haha .

im like super addicted to tumblr :D

see the photos ?

taken during RHD(:

OMG .

i love 2/8 forever .

THEY ROCK MY SOCKS \m/

seriously .

we won the most ethnic class :D

happy to the max !

so yeah ,

alot of stuff happened when i was MIA-ING .

haha yeah .

FIRSTLY ,

was the NE CARNIVAL :D

make friends with people from other schools (:

andand ,

i got laughed by the primary school students .

lol .

seriously .

super paiseh at that time .

SECONDLY ,

about that guy .

sit far from me also want to argue with me .

WTH .

THIRDLY ,

art is making me krazy .

afiqah wanna declare that ,

I HATE ART .

ESPECIALLY STOP MOTION .

aiyoyoyo .

LASTLY ,

i was having bad headache for 3 DAYS !

so went to the doctor .

and he said ,

IM STRESS .

hahha .

and im not supposed to drink bubble tea or any sort of tea .

wth right ?

i mean there's no tea in strawberry ice blend right ?

aiyoyoyo .

and also ,

the doctor said that ,

I MUST THINK POSITIVE THOUGHTS !

all the way (:

and im so lucky to have such awesome bestfriends(:

love you all eventhough you guys are retarded (:

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

STFU .

2010-07-09T07:10:00.000-07:00

i know this picture super unglam .

but who cares ?

._.

so yeah ,

i guess its been quite a while since i last updated .

haha .

been busy .

seriously , not lying .

alot of projects !

aiyoyoyo .

and its pilling up together with the homeworks .

aiyoyo people .

so let's talk bout a random fact :D

err ,

oh yeah ,

i was quiet when im in primary school .

i know its hard to believe cos ,

im always shouting and screaming in school :D

haha .

and my friends laughed at me when i told them im quiet .

wth ?

LOL .

and seriously ,

STFU LA .

i don't bother ur life so yeah ,

don't bother my life .

cos i would not wish to have a fight with anyone .

and that i had enough quarrel with teachers in school .

so yeah ,

STFU AND MYOB..

to that someone :

i shall not trust you anymore .

cos you don't deserve it .

and people like you ,

don't deserve a second chance .

_l_

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

i hate you .

gahh , im disgusted .

2010-07-05T02:14:00.000-07:00

im done with blogging .

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

nobody wants to wait forever .

2010-07-04T18:20:00.000-07:00

HELLLLOOOO !

so ,

im back after a longlonglonglong time :D

been busy .

hehe .

so yeah ,

i guess im a shopaholic ._.

thanks to my aunt .

nahi2 good .

seriously ,

every weekend ,

she brings me to shopping malls .

SHOPPING , SHOPPING , SHOPPING :D

hehe .

andand ,

define friends ?

friends are the one who knows that we are not okay eventhough how much we insist that we're okay .

they are the one who understand us the most .

they are the one who will always be there for us through thick and thins of our life .

and that's how i define TRUE FRIENDS .

sooo ,

first week of school was fine .

on the first day ,

we had firedrill ._.

me and fadzlynna was singing ,

"tsamina mina eh eh , waka waka eh eh "

otw there :D

and i really hate that bawang la .

like seriously .

kept finding fault with me .

like one toodeds .

how i wish we don't have mother tongue lesson on the morning so that it won't spoilt my mood .

._.

so yeah ,

today im going to RP .

to do art project with lynna , me and sze meng .

andand ,

yeah ,

rachel was right .

you guys are two-ediyots .

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

no more secret message .

cos im done with waiting and im moving on .

hanging alone .

2010-06-23T03:26:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOO !

so yeah ,
yesterday i slept at 4am :B
awesome la .
i mean everyone is sleeping and im awake trying to disturb people but can't .
so yeah ,
otp with nad at 1am cos we both can't sleep .
and nad was actually talking to herself .
lol .
seriously i was sleeping :D

so yeah ,
idk why but i got this weird feeling that i won't be celebrating hari raya .
its like i won't be there .
idk la.
this weird feeling is killing me ._.

andand ,
i don't like the new timetable .
seriously .
its like on monday ,
im having mother tongue .
first period somemore .
alahai .
my partner is so going to annoy me ._.
and he's so going to die if he pissed me off .

watchout ah you .

luckily ,

the rest of the days are okay .
except thursday , got to run alot .
haha .
seriously ,
from 5th floor to 1st floor and to 2nd floor ._.
and that ,
im surrounded by my cca teachers :F

oh yeah ,

im shifting house .

FML .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

you left me hanging alone ,

and i don't know what to do now .

holding on to you .

2010-06-22T00:51:00.000-07:00

HELLLOOOO (:

so yeah , see that picture ?

that is my short hair .

and i don't like short hair cos its short .

alamak .

i prefer long hair .

and that hairsytlist keep saying that i can still tie my hair .

-.-

so yeah ,

yesterday was fun .

was hanging out at nad's house .

her cousin is super cute !

his name is hariff haikal .

but yeah ,

he likes to fight .

and he chase me around the table ._.

and ,

i want to go to malaysia .

lol .

seriously .

i want to go to my aunt's house at bukit indah ?

if im not wrong .

and i want to go to JUSCO at bukit indah so that i can go shopping like last year .

yeah :D

i want , i want .

and and i feel like going to universal studios again :D

i swear there's alot of MAT SALEHS :B

haha .

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

do you know that im waiting ?

like what you told me ,

to hold on to you .

2010-06-21T02:35:00.000-07:00

watch me .

2010-06-18T22:43:00.000-07:00

heeellloooo !
so yeah , im back !
hoho :B
just ignore the previous post ._.

so yeah , life has been like a rollercoaster lately .
but yeah , its over now .
and im glad :D

and ,
school is going to reopen in about one week .
alamak pulak .
i haven't even touch any of my homeworks ._.
and also haven't done my revision .
alamak .
i really felt that time flies very fast seh .
i mean i still remembered last year .
its like so slow that i kept blogging :B
and ,
my second semester resolution is to believe in myself .
yeah .
i really am lacking of that .
seriously .
and yeah ,
im not going to care bout other people comments .
seriously .
cos those comments are making me krazy .
so yeah , watch me .
you can't bring me down ,
NEVER .

ROGER FEDERER IS MY IDOL :D
seriously .
i mean he din't give up and i can't too .

so yesterday ,
i went to Health Promotion Board to check my backbone ._.
and i went for x-ray .
and lol , i got to sign this paper saying that im not pregnant ?!
LOL !
obviously , im not .
im 14 years old okay .
GILA .
and it turn out to be that my backbone curved a little .
it freaks me out when i saw that ._.
but luckily ,
its only mild .
phew .

so expedition is coming really soon ,
OMG .
i don't feel like going cos on the second day is my dad burfdae .
alamak pulak .
i mean my dad's burfdae is way more important than this expedition .
idk whether that can be a valid reason .
but i guess can't ._.

so today ,
im planning to start my homework .
oh yeah (Y) .

and fadzlynna is selling my secret on fb -.-
wth .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

secret message ?
alamak .
okay2 .
oh yeah , after telling the truth to you ,
i felt so relieved and idk why i don't feel the same way anymore .

2010-06-17T03:00:00.001-07:00

nothing to post .
FML .

ur always in mind , 24/7 .

2010-06-15T02:42:00.000-07:00

p.s my hair is soo messy ._.

bonjour !

thats hello in french :B

currently ,

im soo addicted to this song ,

"kiss n tell by justin bieber".

so yeah ,

im having too much pressure at home .

from my dad , my mum and my aunt .

ugh .

i realy feel like going far far away land .

._.

and yesterday ,

my brother said that im retarded .

-.-

he said my facial expression , body language and the way i laugh = retard .

alamak .

seriously ,

im not retard .

._.

andand ,

i can say that im happy nowadays .

yeah .

* you know , i know, we know*

lol .

btwbtw ,

i don't know why but i kept thinking that nad is botak.

._.

andand ,

SMILE MORE (:

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

im serious .

don't worry .

i may seem that i don't put in effort ,but really ILY .

do you know that i keep thinking of you ?

seriously ,

ur always in my mind, 24/7 .

peace .

2010-06-14T22:36:00.000-07:00

hola !

thats hello in spanish .

hoho :B

currently ,

talking to lynna biyiol ,

the retarded girl (Y) .

and we are talking 100% malay (:

so yeah ,

im dying to go out .

seriously .

its like im stuck at home .

and only on friday that i can go out .

but ,

its for my checkup .

-.-

i feel like sneaking out of my house .

._.

oh yeah .

so that i can watch karate kid with my friends ,

andand buy more korean stuffs :B

so ,

today is rony burfdae .

HAPPY BURFDAE !

don't start the pakistan rumours again eh .

i guess i want to start doing my revision and homeworks today :D

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

i got this weird feeling

and its a negative feeling .

rotrotrot .

2010-06-13T21:58:00.000-07:00

hellooooooo(:

im seriously rotting at home .

i wanna go out .
walamak .

so ,

that's my favourite biscuit when i was young .

actually , till now its my fav. :B

and ,

that's my cat (:

seriously ,

nothing to post .

btw ,

HAPPY ADVANCED BURFDAE RONY !

*the guy who called me pakistan*

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

im not convinced .

(:

2010-06-13T10:11:00.001-07:00

this is seriously gonna be a short post (:
currently its 1:15am .
and im still awake thanks to my brother .
cos i accompanied him to watch F1 and fifa world cup .
alamak pulak .

so yeah ,
im seriously insane over korean stuffs(:
i kep watching korean dramas and i bought two korean blouse .
oh yeah (:

i can't stand it anymore .
i wanna sleep .

andand ,
i love purple(:

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

ILY .

hanging alone .

2010-06-11T00:11:00.000-07:00

i realised something today .

i really understood what were you doing .

i reallly do .

and i don't know why ,

i was so blind that i din't see this before .

ugh ,

and BYE .

drop that topic .

HEELLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !

currently ,

im addicted to the song 'coba' .

its a malay song .

i love the lyrics .

today was just another typical day .

._.

just that i burst to laughter .

hahaha !

i saw this one epic photo !

haha .

oh yeah people !

and ,

i want to go out !

tak bleh tahan .

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

secret message written on top .

BOOYAH(:

2010-06-09T23:57:00.000-07:00

an nyoung !

HELLLLOOOOOOOOO !

thats korean language(:

thanks to my aunt ,

im now obsessed with korean dramas :B

andand ,

1 more day to fifa world cup !

that is so random ._.

so nowadays ,

time fly superhduperh fast .

without me knowing ,

its already the second week of holiday .

walamak .

and ,

im starting to miss my gila&retarded friends .

haha .

i miss how we used to scream and laugh like nobody business .

talk crap all day long .

sing loudly .

calling each other retarded .

making stupid pranks on each other .

copying each other homeworks and keep saying ,

"what are friends for?"

GILA .

and i miss 2.8 too !

the awesome classs ever .

and ,

danny even make a formulae out of WCP .

aneh la .

._.

there's alot of homework .

tak bleh tahan .

especially art .

walamak .

OMG .

i've been dreaming of someone for 5 times .

._.

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

i let you go .

and please don't come back into my life .

fill up my cup

2010-06-09T00:08:00.000-07:00

HELLLOOOOOO .

im back .

oh yeah .

and hajjah nad have went to Mecca .

takecare and ingat pesanan afiqah .

haha .

i sound like a mother .

._.

so ,

the camp was AWESOME .

oh yeah .

and ,

S-I-E-R-R-A RAWKS !(;

i love the campfire the most .

eventhough there's one part that super embarassing .

._.

its when i won the lucky draw and i screamed and did some krazy hand moves .

LMHO .

and ,

i got a new nickname ._.

*amoimoi*

haha .

andand ,

lynna biyiol is retarded .

peace \m/

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

finally ,

im over you .

and ,

i wont fall for anyone for now .

walamak .

2010-06-02T20:38:00.000-07:00

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeloooooooooooooo(:

first thing first ,

see that photo ?

dedicated to cacat !

i mean AMIN !

haha .

so ,

camp is tomorrow !

alamak pulak .

._.

frankly speaking ,

im not ready .

walamak .

im having stomachache now .

i can't eat .

once i eat, i feel like vomiting .

._.

and im super frustrated .

cos there is alot of stuffs to buy .

qrrrrr .

and that i haven't pack my bag, i haven't learn on how to become dutycadet, i haven't learn the pledge,

i haven't iron my st john clothes,i haven't polish my boots and moremoremoremoremore .

see ?

im seriously not prepared .

._.

andand ,

i won't be updating for 4 days .

._.

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

secret message is back .

sadly , i have nothing to say .

wait .

havehave .

i wanna say that i have let you go and don't come back into my life anymore .

wramdon .

2010-06-02T02:10:00.000-07:00

heeeeeeeeelooooooooooooo(:

today is simply a typical day .

and that ,

nad and i have been webcam-ing since morning till now which is already 5pm .

._.

and ,

2 more days to camp !

walamak ._.

p.s its a 4 day camp .

._.

and ,

tomorrow is AMIN BURFDAE !!

oi cacat/dsd ,

HAPPIE BURFDAE !

and stay cacat .

peace \m/ .

tillhere~

`eccatardd ?

no more secret message .

universal studio rocks \m/ !

2010-06-01T06:35:00.001-07:00

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeellllllloooooooooooooo(:
im back !

lets start from sunday .
errrr ,
we went to the WOODLANDS WATERFRONT !
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
one word :
AWESOME (:

on monday ,
which is yesterday ._.
went to UNIVERSAL STUDIO !!(:
AWESOME SEH !
(:
tak bleh tahan .
its superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AWESOMEEEEE(:

the part which I love the most is the MUMMY REVENGE RIDE !(:
hoho :B
actually , at first i din't want to go cos im scared .
bt , i went for the rollercoaster ride just to accompany my brother ._.
bt , i din't know it was super scary !
firstly ,
the rollercoaster stop like super sudden .
afterwards ,
it went full speed , suddenly stop and fall backwards !
and it also tilted !
OMG !
for the entire ride ,
i closed my eyes and only took some peek-a-boo .
haha .
i know its retarded .
._.
and during the ride ,
I GAVE UP .
haha .
yeahh .
and my brother was shouting at me ,
'sister , u gila uh ? what you want to do ? jump ?'
haha .
idk luh .
bt , its super scary .
haha .
and the person beside me was laughing and so happy while i was screaming like a mad person .
._.
after the ride ,
my face was so 'pucat'
haha !
and i was dizzy ~
._.

i saw my picture .
and i tell you ,
its super epic .
haha .
not going to post here .
._.

and blahblahblahblah (:
and ,
the food is DELICIOUS (:
yummyyummyyummy ~

today ,
went for the civil defence course .
afterwards ,
went to meet nad , izalia and syafeeqah at 888 KFC .
izalia and syafeeqah weren't really eating .
bt , me , fuzzy and nad ate like so long din't eat .
._.

afterwards ,
took photos .
haha .
nad ,
*ehem*
i mean going to be hajjah nad is going to MECCA for 9 days .
and i din't get to send her cos im having camp ._.
alamak pulak .
takecare eh !
and wear high heels please .
for safety babe .

and ,
i just can't get along with kids .
haha .
._.
i tend to fight back .
hehe (:

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

my biggest mistake was to fall for you .

2010-05-29T06:30:00.000-07:00

HELLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (:
IM BACK .

so , i guess im acting like a bitch nowadays .
alamak pulak .
sowwie people .

nowadays ,
im a bit bad-tempered and also get agitated very easily .
aiyah .
idk why .

andand ,
im dying to go to london .
:B
so , i told my dad .
and instead of getting a wise answer ,
he said ,
"lets ride bicycle to there"
alamak pulak .
o.o

and ,
I WANNA THANK NURUL NADHIRAH BINTE HAMDAN FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME AND SOMEONE WHO I CAN RELY ON .
THANKS BABE !
and sowwie if im a bit bicthy at times .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

maybe afterall , i just need someone to talk to .

2010-05-26T19:38:00.000-07:00

HELLLLOOOOOOO(:

just now , MTPS was kinda fun .
hoho :B

these are my MYE results and grades :
English-B4
Malay-B3
Chinese-D7
Mathematics-B3
Science-A2
Geography-B4
Literature-A1

im kinda satisfied with my results(:
except for my chinese .
but ,
im going to work extraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextra
extra hard !

and ,
my assistant form teacher is so RETARDED .
he don't even know that i have changed my seating place when its like 2 months have past .
tak bleh tahan .
:B

and also ,
he said that im super talkative !
and that i got to control myself .
aiyah .
retarded lah you .
he also said that i like to walk around the class .
haha :B

and ,
i have backbone problem .
UGH .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

(:

2010-05-26T06:26:00.000-07:00

HEEEEELLLLLLLOOOOOOO(:

p.s this is going to be a short post(:

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOOOOL !
im half happy and half sad .
:B

IM SO GONNA MISS THE KRAZY TIMES I HAD WITH MY BFF(S) .
THE TIME WHERE WE SING LIKE THERE'S NOBODY BUSINESS .
THE TIME WHERE WE COPY ANSWERS AND KEPT SAYING, 'WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR LUH?'
THE TIME WHERE WE JOKE AROUND AND NON-STOP CRAPPING .
hahahahahaha .

so ,
im busy on the first and the last week of June holidays .
alamak pulak :B

my body is aching and im so sleepy .
and im having blisters .
alamak .
i walked like a retarded .
:B

andand ,
im getting my report book tomorrow(:
woohooo :B

bonding ?
hahaha .
you know , i know .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

im having mix feelings . UGH .

i won't waste anymore time .

2010-05-22T06:36:00.000-07:00

HIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (:

firstly, my eyes is burning and hurtful .
alamak pulak .
all bcos of me crying non-stop for about 1 hour .
to be exact, i was screaming while crying very hard .
o.o
and, my vision is quite blur now .

skipskip ,
just now was R3 DAY !(:
actually, not so fun luh .
hahaha .
all bcos we only have 2 blocks while we have 10 groups which consists of 4 people .

while we walking there,
i was forced to share the umbrella with miss wu .
o.o
she was holding on my shirt so that i won't run away .
and she said to me, ' afiqah, in 2/8 ur my favourite student .'
and i showed her the line dot line face .
haha ;B

at there,
we took the 11th-8th storey at blk 894c .
actually, i din't do much due to im scared if there's DOG .
SCARY .
:B

SZE MENG, UR SUCH AN UNRESPONSIBLE OWNER !
hahahahahaha !
you know, i know :B

see that cat ?
its superhduperh cute seh .
and that cat was playing with a string .
and i SCREAMED .
and idk why ,
the cat ran away .
hahaha :B

and i sat for the koto test just now .
im hoping that i passed .
eventhough i doubt so .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

p.s HAPPY BURFDAE JASON !

haaaaaaaaaaccccccccuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmm

2010-05-20T19:09:00.000-07:00

hellloooooooo(:

today , afiqah din't go to skool due to im superh sick .
UGH .
yesterday went to the clinic and got a MC .

so ,
did i mention that im shifting house ?
to be exact . i sold my house and we still haven't got a new house .
alamak pulak .
:B

i can't wait to get my report book (:
cos im so eager to know my exact result and also THE COMMENTS .
if i got a comment saying , 'afiqah can balance her CCA and CSP well .'
im so gonnnaaa SCREAM !
like seriously , cos i can't balance the both of them .
and i got the comment before in my report book .

i tend to be angry at little things .
:B
and rachel always say this ,
'if ur angry, don't show it to people bcos the people will become pissed off too."
and ,
finally i understand why .

tomorrow ,
R3 DAY(:
hehehehehehe .
'the twuck is coming !'
you know , i know .
:B

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

p.s I am not in love or like anyone anymore .

HAPPYBURFDAEKACHANG !

2010-05-19T02:07:00.000-07:00

HELLLLLOOOOOOOOOO :B

so ,

i deleted the last post .

haha .

must be emotional at that time .

was meant for someone who's living in my house .

O.O

firstly ,

i wanna wish ANAK HAMDAN A HAPPY BURFDAE !

HAPPIE BURDAE NURUL NADHIRAH BINTE HAMDAN !

bought for her a idk gift .

o.o

as expected ,

I GOT MY MYE RESULT !

English-C5

Math-B3

Malay-B4

Science-A2

Humanities-C5

Csp-C6

Literature-A2

overall , im quite satisfied with my result .

but ,

there's still room for improvements(:

and i wonder why are some people so genius ?

o.o

and ,

im gonna work extraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextraextra hard for Common Test 2 and EOY .

and i don't feel like going to school tomorrow since im having running nose, coughing and little bit feverish .

UGH .

'chilli crab pasta!'

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

good , bye .

2010-05-18T22:26:00.000-07:00

hieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee(:

so , obviously today is WEDNESDAY !

so ,

today is simply E-LEARNING .

driving me GILA .

the assignment for science was alot !

UGH .

ALERT !

tomorrow im going to get my results .

scary pulak .

and ,

the song below .

i love it (:

and ,

idk why ,

yesterday i sat down and think bout my life .

like yeah .

and I realised that im being very stupid towards something .

and i hate it .

i also thought of going to Australia for the June holidays to stay with my uncle and kazens .

UGH .

how i wish ?

and ,

im having eye-bag .

thanks to the crying yesterday .

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

I don't want to give up on you ,

but ur not making things easier .

buhbye .

2010-05-18T18:01:00.000-07:00

goodbye ?

2010-05-17T21:38:00.000-07:00

p.s random photos (:

HELLLLLLLLOOOOOOOO!(:

im in love with the song , 'when i look at you'

haha .

and did i mention that the guy in the 'last song' movie was HAWT !

hehe .

and ,

just now ,

was doing the E-learning .

UGH .

was so GILA .

seriously .

I was screaming (:

just now,

was webcam-ing with veen2 .

lol .

he kept asking me to listen to him playing the recorder ,

and he let me listen to all kind of music .

to be specific , tamil song .

GILA.

if i have 1 wish ,

i will wish to have happiness in myself , my family and friends .

random pulak .

haha .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

i had enough ,

im going to let you go and walk off .

i don't even want to say goodbye cos it hurts alot

im undecisive

2010-05-17T02:25:00.001-07:00

hieeeeeeeeee(:

firstly ,
HAPPY BURFDAE AWESOME XUEYI !

so ,today HISTORY PAPER marks the end of the MYE exam .
*SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM*
yeah people .
the paper was okay .
just that my handwriting sucks due to i do not have enough time and i was panic that i scribbled (;

so ,
on thursday ,
we're getting our result .
very the scary luh .
haha .

so ,
2morrow and wednesday is e-learning days .
UGH .
gotta stuck at the computer doing homework on9 .
aiyah .

so ,
just now ,
i went to a movie with my BFFS !
wooohooo~
we watched 'last song' .
it was AWESOME !
and the guy is super HAWT !
ans i give a rating of 4/5 for making me smiled and cried .
haha .
and nad smuggled biscuits into the cinema .
haha .
isyh , isyh , isyh .

so , im thinking whether i should be mean or not ?
cos i've been kind to people and that i realised some are getting advantage of me .
and it sucks a lot .
UGH.

and 2 person said that im unique .
haha !
and ,

tillhere~
`ecctardd?
ily(:

heartache .

2010-05-14T00:51:00.000-07:00

helllllooooo(:

so im back after a very long time !

yeah oh yeah .

simply bcos i was having MYE and i gotta revise (:

haha .

so ,

all the papers was fine .

EXCEPT ,

MATH PAPER 2 !

its superhduperh hard .

but ,

on the positive sight ,

i tried my best and more for all the papers(:

and ,

next monday is HISTORY PAPER .

the last MYE paper for 2010 .

gonna revised later on .

so ,

alot of stuff happened during the MYE exam .

been revising alot that my whole body is aching from lacking of sleep .

and also ,

on mother's day ,

its my mum burfdae !

wooohooo~

bought her a bouqet of flower and send it to her office .

i mean thats her wish for so long .

so me , my bro and my aunt shared money and bought it for her .

on last sunday ,

went to west coast .

funfunfun .

then , i saw a family of cats .

yeah oh yeah .

it consists of mother , father , and 2 child .

haha .

all black and white in colour .

yesterday ,

went to rachel's house to study math with veen2, mon thant, dakshaini and lynna biyiol .

and celebrated rachel's father burfdae !

the cake was yummy .

yumyumyum(:

I WANNA WATCH LAST SONG !
hha .
i sound so demanding pulak .

tillhere~

`eccatardd?

2010-04-30T21:59:00.000-07:00

those photos are all so GILA .
haha .
so im back after a longlong time(;
woohoo ~
this blog was soo dead .
hehe .
and ,
THANKS NAD FOR SPAMMING MY TAGBOARD !

haha .
GILA .

so , life has been like a rollercoaster for me .
but ,
its over .
im smiling now .

MYE is coming .
alamak pulak .
hahaha .
and GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE .

and alot of burfdaes are coming up .
so ,
afiqah wanna wish ,
HAPPY ADVANCE BURFDAE TO EVERYONE (:

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

p.s won't be updating soon since MYE is around the corner .

HI LANCE CORPORAL AFIQAH !

2010-04-17T05:31:00.000-07:00

konichiwa !
sorrey for MIA-ING longlonglonglong time !

so , today was AGM and also Yishen sir birthday .
AWESOME !

and ,
the most awesome part was when we got promoted !
yeahhh(:
after the promotion parade , i was smiling widely .
haha .
i din't shout cos i'll look silly .
and im in WELFARE DEPARTMENT(:
yeahhhhhh people(:

and that during the promotion parade,
mon thant and nad was at the staircase .
and nad was pointing at me ,
while mon thant was waving at me !
hahaha .
i can't move people !

the water parade or something ? was FUN TO THE MAX !
hahahaha .
i forgotten that ssgt amirah is not graduating this year, and i kept aiming and splash water at her .
and she got her revenge on me by splashing the water on my face .
hahahahaha!

overall ,
ITS AWESOME (:

p.s
someone said that i looked like an Eurasian-Malay mix .
hahahaha .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

2010-04-10T06:29:00.001-07:00

AWESOME (:

AWESOME !

2010-04-09T06:42:00.000-07:00

heyloh people !
im back after a longlonglonglonglong time (:
AWESOME !

so ,
school was fun when im MIA-ING .
teeheee~

so ,
just now activity was kinda fun .
just that , i get pissed off with something .
qrrrrrrrrrrr .
you killed my mood .
*pointing at you*

so ,
2morrow , im going to religious class .
idontknowwhybutikindaeagertogoforthereligiousclass ?
yeahhh (:

on sunday ,
i got to do the malay freaking project !!
isyh !
go away luh .
andand ,
malay lesson is so frustrating !
i can't stand the teacher and the person sitting beside me !
qrrrrrrrrr .
i demand a change of place !
haha .
i sound demanding .
but ,
seriously , i can't focus .

and ,
the guys under the block are singing loudly !
qrrrrrrrrrrr .

P.S
next monday is the NAPHA !
*screammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm*
im traumatize with shuttle run especially the turning part .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

am i still waiting for you ?

cooooooooooooooooooooooool (:

2010-04-05T04:45:00.000-07:00

HEYLOH PEOPLE !
see that quote above .
i made it !
and im sooo hyper now !
haha .
i mean its coooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool .

just now was FUN !
all i did was laughed , laughed and laughed .
teehee ~
just that , nad din't come today .
GET WELL SOON (:
and
GET WELL SOON (:
to rachel !

btw ,
one of the members on SPCA came to school to talk about cruelty to animals .
and ,
i cried when i heard the story .
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !

and ,
i fell down .
ugh .

currrently ,
-im thinking of new quotes
-chatting with my awesome friends
-doing biology homework
-tumblring
-facebooking
-blogging
what a multi-tasker i am (:
haha .

andand ,
HAPPY BURFDAE HAIDAH !

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

2010-04-03T05:45:00.000-07:00

p.s photo was taken on april fools day :]

hello people !
if you noticed , i really love to say people ;]
yeahh people .

so , today was AWESOME !
haha .
went to madrasah .
awesomeawesomeawesome ;]

idk why ,
but i tend to blush alot .
haha .
seriously .
and i look so silly when im blushing .
qrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .

so ,
tomorrow im supposed to go to my kazen's engagement ceremony .
im hoping its going to be BOOOMZ !

btw ,
we got second for the malay competition !
thats my first medal in my entire life ;]
yeahhh .

andand ,
i find the true meaning in life ;]

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

stop staring at me will you ? ur making me blush .

2010-04-02T07:52:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE :]
im backkkk .
teehee~

so , APRIL FOOLS DAY WAS FUN !
i was entering the class when i realised that the tables and chairs are facing the other directions .
haha .
AWESOME !
andand ,
i was so shocked when i realised that my table and chair was wrapped !
haha .
and was tied with a ribbon and there's a note on it saying ,'APRIL FOOLS DAY!'
haha .
my table and chair was the one and only being WRAPPED !
haha .
credits to dakshaini , farzana and fuzzy .
and the whole day was full of LAME JOKES .
haha .
but , it was fun ;]
and the mass run was CANCELLED !
yeahhhhhh !
i was smiling and shouting !
haha .
*SB*

today ,
i went to where i was brought up ; commonwealth .
we went there to eat .
haha .
its cheap and delicious people !
afterwards went to VIVO !
funfunfun .
suddenly , my bro was so pissed off with my mum .
and started to quarrel and bcos of that ,
we gotta go back home .
-.-
and my mum was pissed off with me too bcos she's pissed off with my bro ?
and i did nothing !
gahhhh .
went to CWP .
saw my k1 fwen !
haha .
actually i din't recognised her .
my mum was the one .
teehee~

andand ,
just now in the bus , there was 1 drunk man !
im so scared !
seriously !
he was singing and shouting .
qrrrrrrrr .
and i fake a sleep bcos im scared .
shhhhhhhh !

its seriously unfair to me .
why must you always scold me for what bro did ?
im not a doll or whatever , where you can scold me anytime .
do you ever know that ur words are hurtful ?
why can't you treat me like how you treat my bro ?
yeahhh .
this is for you , mum !
i can't stand it anymore .
you send me for counseling bcos you can't stand me when i did nothing ?
and bcos of that , i have a black record .
ugh .
this is too much for me .

gahhh ,
tillhere~
`ecctardd?

MIA-ING (:

2010-03-27T22:15:00.000-07:00

konichiwa !
im back after mia-ing for a longlonglonglong time (:

so ,
alot of AWESOME things happened when im MIA-ING (:
yeahhh .
the 913fm came to our skoool !
AWESOME !
i love that radio station alotalot (;
especially the hot 30 countdown !
so , boy thunder and another guy DJ came to our skool and talk bout something ?
and ,
he said that if we tune in to 913fm , we could stand a chance to win tickets to around Europe for 20 days .
and he said the first stop was LONDON !
and i screamed when i heard that .
haha .
yeahhh .
and people were looking at me .
-.-

i love LONDON alot !
i wish i can go there someday (;

and ,
i felt like fainting when running around the school hall and climbing up the stairs for 12 ROUNDS !
qrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .
and mr chong was like ,
"why ur so quiet ? must be tired right ?"
and i show him the -.- face .
yeahhh .
OBVIOUSLY LUH !
qrrrrrrrr .
and he kawl me the loud girl .
-.-
i know im loud and noisy .
can't help it (:

and ,
i ran during the healthy lifestyle !
AWESOME !
haha .
got inspred by WCP .
haha .
*winkwink*

and mr poh got mad with me cos i kept saying london .
haha .
he was like ,
"you and ur london !"
haha ,
yeahh people (:

and ,
last friday activity was AWESOME !
im the assistant duty nco !

yeahh .

i love the games !
and i know some of my juniors name .
and i went 'awww' when i gotta know that one of my juniors name is eugene .
haha .
after activity ,
went under the block near 7-eleven and hangout .
was AWESOME !
and , i really hate the shoebag incident .
so EMBARRASSING .

saturday was reallyreally AWESOME !
went to the hill near christ church there to celebrate my aunt's burfdae !
its so windy !
and my hair was flying in all directions .
south , north , east , west !
haha .
and ,
my kazen bought her bunny too .
so cute !!
and believe me ,
flying kite is not easy !
and it really test my patience .
haha .

and i somehow contributed to the earth hour !
i mean im outside from 6-9:45pm .
yeahhh .

today ,
gotta do the projects and homeworks !
ARGHHHHHHH !

p.s
im addicted to saying AWESOME !

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

never say hi when you meant goodbye .

T.T

2010-03-19T18:57:00.000-07:00

saturday , 10:29am
GOOD MORNING !
so ,
today morning is soo TRAGIC !

woke up and my mum said that ,
the old uncle who had took care of me when i was a toddler had just passed away .
):
and when i heard that ,
i cried on the spot .
how can i not be sad ?
when i was a toddler , i was taken care by an old couple cos my parents were busy working .
they showered me with their love .
and ,
i can't even remember when was the last time i meet them .
and now ,
he's gone .
):
life is really SHORT .
so ,
appreciate them and tell them that you love them before its tooo late .
):

T.T

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

shall i tell you the truth ?

WCP ?

2010-03-18T19:53:00.001-07:00

GOOD MORNING PEOPLE !(:

so , what is WCP ?
im curious .
0.0

so ,
good news !
i din't breakdown yesterday night .
and that i did my math hw .
AWESOOMEEE !(:
yeahhh .

and ,
I HATE YOU MALAY PROJECT !
qrrrrrrrrrrr .
malay lesson are so going to be BORING .
gahhhh ,
since i don't seat beside nad and farzana anymore .
i can't talk .
ISYH !
now , i seat beside a guy .
aiyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo .
i want to TALK .
*toot* !

i guess ,
i don't want to do my malay hw (:
so , i can seat outside the class !
which is better ?!
there's non-stop of fresh air and the scenery is nicer than in the class .
(:

and ,
when skool reopens ,
im going to shift place .
i can't stand it when im sitting at the back cos i tend to talk and not focus(:
PLEASE !
i said the word please okay(:

today is FRIDAY !
aiyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo !
and i have not completed my hw ,
i have not revise for the speed test and the class test .
qahhhh ,

andand ,
tomorrow is the BIGBIG COMPETITION !
GOOD LUCK TO RSS SJAB !(:

and i love purple(:

tillhere~
`ecctardd?

awesomme or whuart ? hate you .

BACK !

2010-03-18T04:50:00.000-07:00

heyloh people !
gonna be a short post .

just now ,
went to library with nad and bro .
thanks to them ,
i laughed alot(:
and ,
i saw alot of people !
yeahhh .
one of them are ,
miss renu !
and im not sure whether she recognized me .
cos she ignored me .

andand ,
i kept saying that i gotta be strong to myself .
and ,
IT WORKS !(:
yeahhh .

btw ,
i hate the word 'assume' .
bcos its like you don't know anything and you assume .
and its like you assume anyhow ?
qrrrrrrrrr .
and that word don't exist in my dictionary .
*breathe in , breathe out*
im calming myself down .

and I LOVE THE SONG SOLO BY IYAZ !
ohmy ! im being random .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

you shall not assume when i was about to tell you the truth .

smile , laugh and love my life(:

2010-03-17T18:40:00.000-07:00

im back again .
yeahhh .

so ,
just now ,
i re-read my old posts and that ,
i realised something .
that i've been acting differently from the start of the year .
i've been sighing alot .
reallyreallyalot .

and ,
just now ,
i went and read motivational quotes and videos .
and i realised something too .
i realised that im REALLY WEAK .
seriously .
i gotta be strong .
reallyreally strong .

now ,
my target and what i want to achieve in my life are :
1 . GET UP AND FACE THE WORLD and BE STRONG .
2 . ignore negative comments and don't take it seriously .
3 . think POSITIVE and nahi2 negative .
4 . be less sensitive .
5 . be afraid and shy at the right times and not always .

lastly , i want to SMILE , LAUGH AND LOVE MY LIFE (:

from now on ,
i won't be longer posting any depressed comments or anything connected to depression .
haha .
i'll be posting positive and crap stuffs .
hehe .
(:

tillhere~
`eccamontella(:

2010-03-17T17:15:00.001-07:00

GOOD MORNING PEOPLE !(:
its currently 8:16am in the morning .
im breathing in FRESH AIR !
wooohooo~

so , yesterday ,
i did breakdown .
UGH .
i guess my mission will be not to cry for a day .
yeahhhh .
hopefully , i won't breakdown today .
its so weird .
i was talking to nad and suddenly , i break down .
GILA .

so today ,
nad and i are going to the library to study and do our homeworks .
yeahhhh ,
i want to concentrate in my studies .
i have to .
i have to take things step by step .
and ,
i must be MIND-FREE !
right nad ?
haha .

nothing to post anymore .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

im hurt

2010-03-17T01:35:00.000-07:00

BOOO !
im back again and again .

just now was shocking !
my cat went berserk and started to attack me and my brother .
its so scary .
and i was jumping and screaming like GILA .
and nad saw it bcos we were webcam-ing before that .
qrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .

and ,
my cat STARE at me .
im like wth ?
cats also know how to stare at people ?

after that ,
she calm down and went to sleep .
haha .
what a cat ?

my life was seriously at risk during that incident .
hahaha .

and ,
ILOVEMYTUMBLRALOT(;

and ,
tomorrow is already THURSDAY .
so fast !
i really got to revise and do my homeworks .
no more failing .
cos i guess that causes me to have depression .
i got to try my best and more !(:

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

im afraid that if i tell you the truth ,
hell will breakout .

2010-03-16T21:06:00.000-07:00

random pic(:

so ,
i start off the day right .
i smile all the way .
haha .
credits to nad .
she make me smile today !
haha .
and she have pretty eyes !
like seriously !
i envy her .
haha .
jkjk .
and she's in love with ultra-violet blahblah mascara .
haha .
and ,
be alert !
she's GILA .

p.s
my stomach is vibrating .
so FAMISH !
and ,
praveen and lynna was so shocked when i used the word famish ,
they were like , 'you can speak english huh ?'
wth ?
hha .
so you guys trying to say im speaking hindi all this while ?
hha .
GILA .

but ,
yeahh .
im obsessed with anything connected to hindi .
i was so hyper and enthu when learning a hindi dance !
yeahhhh .
and i love to say ,
NAHINAHI(:
and aiyoyoyoyoyoyo !
even my friends and teachers are addicted to it .
yeahhh(:

and yesterday ,
was AWESOME !
we were doing a ghost trailer .
haha .
and there's bloopers .
hha .
but ,
too bad .
the photos are with lynna .
will try to upload it here .
AND ,
the most random part was when mon thant said ,
im megan fox ?!
haha .
i was laughing like hell when i heard that .

thanks my dearest and bestest friends for making my day everyday ,
you guys make me smile and laugh everday without fail .
a day without you guys are like hell .
when im with you guys , i forgot bout my problems .
eventhough for a while .
sorrey for making
i just wanna say I LOVE YOU GUYS !
referring to LYNNA , NADDIE , FARZANA , RACHEL , PRAVEEN , MON THANT , AMEESHA , ZIQAAH !

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

2010-03-16T17:36:00.000-07:00

konichiwa !

see that ?
im trying to follow it .
and ,
1 good thing happen today ,
i din't cry .
yeahh .
but ,
there's still many hours till tomorrow .

im also trying to remember what interesting things that happen in my life .
so that i can smile and laugh .
it sounds kinda krazy but , yeahh .

i want to get up from this nightmare .
i have to stop everything .
i must be strong .
but , yeahhh .
and ,
i suspek muspek that problem will come in at the perfect time .
BUT ,
its okay .
i have to be postive thinkers like my juniors(:
haha .

i know that im the type that think too much .
its just me .
i have been like that since primary skool .
i love to think too much .
and in the end ,
i'll breakdown .
it so silly .
but ,
THATS ME .

i'll change into a better afiqah .
the one who always smile like before .
the one who always laugh for nothing .
the one who loves to talk crap .
the one who talks non-stop .
the one who loves her life .

tillhere~
`ecctardd?

AWESOME !

2010-03-16T06:24:00.000-07:00

AWESOME !
i meet almost all the criteria of having depression !

Sadness or hopelessness
Irritability, anger, or hostility
Tearfulness or frequent crying
Withdrawal from friends and family
Loss of interest in activities
Changes in eating and sleeping habits
Restlessness and agitation
Feelings of worthlessness and guilt
Lack of enthusiasm and motivation
Fatigue or lack of energy
Difficulty concentrating
Thoughts of death or suicide

for no. 1 - yeahh , been feeling really sad and hopeless . everything i do is hopeless .
no. 2 - yeahh , been scolding alot of people . sorrey guys .
no. 3 - yeahh . 24 HOURS CRYING .
no. 4 - not too sure for friends . but , for family , it has always been .
no. 5 - yeahh .
no.6 - yeahh .
no.7 - get angry small certain things
no.8 - yeah .
no.9 - yeahh . motivation won't work for me anymore .
no.10 - not sure .
no.11 - yeahh . thats why i screwed alot of my papers .
no.12 - won't tell .

yeahh ,
so IM DEPRESSED !
UGH .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

im sorrey guys , i'll be fine .
i will (:

UGH .

2010-03-16T05:05:00.000-07:00

WHATS WITH LIFE ?
whenever i got the motivation to get up and face the world , the problems will come in at the perfect time and destroy all the motivation .
UGH .

i wrote alot of motivation quotes around me .
in my room , in my diary .
but ,
nothing helps me .

i can't stand it anymore .
when can i smile like how i used too ?
when can i laugh like how i used too ?
when can i stop crying ?
everynight , i breakdown .
even while im walking outside , tears will roll down my cheeks .
UGH .

and ,
i don't call this as moodswings at all .

you may think im emo or something .
but ,
seriously ,
if ur in my position ,
you'll breakdown too .
won't you breadown when ur parents don't care bout you but , cares alot bout ur brother ?
won't you breakdown when ur parents curse at you ?
won't you breakdown when no one cares bout you ?
won't you breakdown when all your family members talk behind your back and all is negative stuff ?
won't you breakdown when you get curse for what you din't do ?
won't you breakdown when a rumours breakout and its like so untrue ?
won't you breakdown when you know that no one wants to listen to you ?
WON'T YOU BREAKDOWN ?
to be frank , there's more .

im trying so hard not to breakdown .
i seriously want to talk to someone .
i don't even mind if its a stranger .
at least , i can tell out all my problems that i kept inside me for so long .
i know i sound desperate and pathetic .
but ,
thats me .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

even while im writing this , im crying .

something is missing ,

2010-03-15T19:15:00.000-07:00

GOOD MORNING(:

today ,
im going out .
yeahhh .
i don't like staying at home .

and ,
i feel so lost .
i have no idea why .
something is missing in my life .
UGH .
what is it ?

p.s
sorrey for the previous post .
i sounded mean .
but , yeahh .
im really pissed off at that time .

tillhere~
`ecctardd?

im scared if its you that is missing in my life .

yeah , YOU !

2010-03-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

heyloh people !
sorrey no pics for today .
comp sot .

today was so CHAOTIC !
like seriously .
no need to elaborate .
im so pissed off .
and ,
you can never take back on what you did to me .
yeahhh .
mind that .

andand ,
im just so pathetic .
i can't scold boys .
and i have no idea why .
i don't even scold my own brother and thats why he's rude to me .
and ,
i have a soft heart .
im easily hurt and easily forgive someone eventhough how much that person hurts me .
UGH .
i have no idea whether its a good or a bad thing ?

i have to be more firm in my life or people will hurt and bully me easily .
i just keep quiet and that doesn't mean im not having any grudge against you .

btw ,
i guess i want to private my blog sooner or later .

tillhere~
`ecctardd?

you know i know , i won't forgive you .

MIA-ING ?

2010-03-13T21:19:00.000-08:00

heylohpeople !(:

sorrey for MIA-ING for two days .
yeahhh .

last friday was the SPORT CARNIVAL(;
AWESOME !
yeahhh ,
just that it rains ,
awwwwwwwww .
all bcos of lynna who kept singing from the morning .
qrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .
and ,
i LOVE public duty(:
andand ,
lynna said i look like an indonesian spoilt brat .
qrrrrrrrrr .
so random .
i mean like ,
i don't denied that i have a mixture of Indonesian blood .
but ,
IM NOT A SPOILT BRAT !

yesterday ,
went to aunt's house .
skip religious class again .
haha .
went there by taxi .
in the taxi ,
my mum and aunt kept fighting and quarreling .
UGH .
and im in the middle .
i feel like screaming at them .
even the taxi drive can't stand them .
qrrrrrrrrrrrr .
reached there ,
had my lunch .
yeahhh ,
p.s im not like PA .
*WINKWINK*
and i love my kazens .
yeahhh ,
they are all AWEOME PEOPLE .
yeahhhh .
laughed alot .
haha .

afterwards ,
went to little india .
my mum wants to buy a blouse there .
and ,
my kazen was like , 'you want to go and see your uncle right ?'
im like qrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .

then ,
went to BUGIS(:
my favourite place(:
went there and ,
bought a t-shirt and skinny jeans !
yeahhh ,
thank you auntie !!

and ,
actually ADAM LAMBERT WAS THERE .
and that im late for 20 MINS !
if not , i would have seen him !
UGH .
T.T

went back home after shopping(:

today ,
was thinking of going out .
but ,
suddenly ,
my mood went down .
i have no idea why .
UGH .

sometimes ,
i don't really understand myself .
i have no idea why am i acting like this .
UGH .
i want to talk to someone .
someone who is willing to listen to me .
all of my problems .
UGH .

im breaking down again and this time ,
im not sure why .

how awesome is that ?

2010-03-11T02:08:00.000-08:00

heyloh people !

well great ,
im having running nose , my eyes are teary and im having sore throat .
UGH.
tomorrow is sport carnival and im sick .
how awesome is that ?
ugh .

today was AWESOMMEEEEEE !
yeah .
just skip to the part where we learn a new dance .
i mean BOLLYWOOD DANCE !
yeah(:
its so FUNNN !
haha .
we were singing randomly as a class .
haha .
its supposed to be OM SHANTI OM not OH SHANTI OH .
(:
had a GREAT TIME .

after skool ,
went to watch the softball match to support farzana .
only half of it .
haha .
i get frustrated cos i still don't understand on how they score points .
so , went to canteen .
actually i wanted to stay till 5pm .
but , rachel was like telling me that im sick and that i need to rest .
so , i went home .
instead of resting , in blogging(:
yeah .

andand ,
im hoping that by tomorrow , im fine and no running nose , no teary eyes and no sore throat !
pleasepleaseplease !!

and ,
me , lynna and rachel have come up with a class cheer(:
yeah .
gonna tell the classs tomorrow .

tillhere~
`ecctardd?

finally , the burden is off my shoulder .

i won't .

2010-03-10T05:28:00.000-08:00

heyloh people !

so , today was again BOOMZ !!
like yeah .

just that i was having bad mood in the morning .
afterwards , i was LMAO-ING till i reached home .
haha .
weird much ?
thats me(:

andand ,
im in love with softball !
i mean only the pitching part .
yeah .
was trying out at the parade square while rachel , lynna and praveen was chasing after each other for something ?
haha .

st john ,
was also BOOMZ !
yeah .
just that , the guy that kawl-ed me intan din't come .
awwww .
and ,
i just can't stand sharvin !
haha .
yeah .
he's so weird !
and ,
when Mr Low was kawling his name ,
i LAUGHED .
haha .

after st john ,
i heard someone kawl-ing my name .
and i saw someone waving .
i din't wear my specs so , i can't see .
so , i assume its my fwen and that i wave at that someone .
actually ,
that someone was waving to atiqah .
i was like WHUART ?!
i scream out loud !
yeah .
im so paiseh .
UGH .

afterwards ,
went to 7-eleven block and hangout till 7:30pm .
afterwards ,
went home with hui min .

andand ,
ZOE , YOU RAWKS !
haha .
and LYNNA.B RAWKS TOO !

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

i won't be lying to myself anymore .

wondering ?

2010-03-09T03:22:00.000-08:00

hihihihihihihihihi !(:

my cheeks is soooo chubby !

sorrey for not updating yesterday .
was busy with projects .
UGH .

so , today was also BOOMZ !
just that i was quite moody during PE .
its like sooo HOT !
qrrrrrrrrr .

after skool ,
went to comp lab 1 to do the IT enrichment project .
UGH .
its sooooooooooooooooo not needed .
i hate IT enrichments .
qrrrrrrrrr .

andand ,
3 MORE DAYS TO SPORT CARNIVAL !*(SB)*
YEAH !
gonna save my energy and voice for the sport carnival ,
im so not going to scream and shout till sport carnival .
yeah !
its like the last time we play as 2.8 ):

and thanks to amin , i smell like a boy because of ur deodorant ,
and also thanks to me , you smell like a girl because of my deodorant(:

andand ,
projects are pilling up .
UGH .
i wonder how tall will it be ?

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

people always say that love is not about possess but , they just said that to make the loser feels better .
but , seriously ,
it's not helping .

yeah ,

2010-03-07T01:06:00.000-08:00

hellohellohellohellohello(:
IM BACK .

nothing much happen yesterday .
just that ,
i skipped my religious class(:
yeah .

today ,
soooo BOOMZ !
my auntie came and we talk bout her and my past .
haha .
only one word : BOOMZ !
and got alot of keching$ !
and going to treat nad ice-cream .
yeah .

currently talking to nad who in love with ultra volume mascara otp .
gossiping !
yeah .

IM SERIOUSLY IN LOVE WITH TUMBLR !
i like to show my feeelings and emotions through pictures instead of saying it out .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

i don't need a guy to make things happen

(:

2010-03-05T00:18:00.000-08:00

heyloh people!!(:

today was AWESOME AND BOOMZ !
yeah(:
just that ,
during malay lesson ,
i was so pissed off .
bcos my malay teacher accused me for somethinq that i never did !
qrrrrrrrrr .

andand ,
i wanna say that praveen and farzana , watch out for what is going to happen on monday !
qrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ,

after skool ,
i went back home straight with izalia .
my fwens just can't believe that im going back that early .
haha .
yeah , me too .
i love to hangout but ,
i have to go home and take care of my brother .

outside skool ,
i realised that my phone was missing .
and i know that its either praveen or farzana who took my phone bocs this is not the ferst time my hp went MIA .
went inside skool and search for farzana and praveen .
saw them and farzana ran away quickly .
so ,
i went and ran after her .
and about a few minutes later ,
i found out that its not her that took my hp and that is praveen .
qrrrrrrrrr ,
wasted my energy !
chased after praveen .
i was shouting , "give me back my phone !"
qrrrrrr ,
i took both my shoes off and was about to throw at praveen when i realised that one of my socks has a big hole that is exposing my toes !
was so paiseh , threw the idea straightaway and wear my shoes quickly .
haha .
after a longlong time chasing after him ,
he qave me .
at last !
yeah .
now i know how rachel feels like .
haha .

then ,
went back home straightaway .
yeah(;

currently ,
im sooo bored !

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

don't show me that face ,

imback(:

2010-03-04T03:17:00.000-08:00

heyloh people !(;
im back with a smiley face(:

so ,
today is exceptionally FUN !!(;
yeah .

andand ,
im sooo in love with tumblr !
haha .
i mean ,
i prefer to express my feelings through pictures than talking .
yeah .

and ,
projects and homeworks are once again ,
making me crazy !
alot of them are due either by monday or tuesday .
UGH .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

whereareyou?

projectsdrivinqmecrazy

2010-03-01T23:07:00.000-08:00

tuesday-3:18pm

heylohpeople !

so , today is quite fun !
haha ,

until ,
i knew that my bro fractured his wrist !
eww !
i saw his wrist and i was like wth?
what happened ?
and he looks so weak like qonna faint any moment .
and ,
his classmates said that he run backwards and fell down and fractured his wrist during pe lesson .
im like , why is he running backwards ?
so ,
he was sent to hospital by ambulance .
my mum and father went there .
and im not .
qrrrrr ,
i wanted to .
but , i can't .
i felt quite sad for him .
i mean i can't forqet his face .
he looks so weak .

currently in school computer lab ,
doing my geography project with my team .

tillhere~
`eccatardd?

imspeechless

niciQah[=

Life.

you know what?

stronger.

NEW & BETTER ME.

broken arrows.

ur one in a million.

my love .

life .

im a pushover .

just say fuck it and smile .

cinta monyet .

IZZZANNNNNN ! :D

its the best , i swear (':

just a dream .

i love you .

i swear , it was the best birthday i ever had (':

love .

Goodbye 2010 (':

fearless (':

dumb me .

im lazy (:

you know what , i love you (':

the best thing ever (':

miss me kay (:

fuck you _l_

escape from reality (:

(:

BACK ~

GENTING HERE I COME (:

I whip my hair back and forth

MAGIC IN ME (:

define love .

no boy is worth ur teenage years.

ecca maynard !

Fireworks .

DEAD BLOG .

RAINNNNN !

YOU RAWK MY SOCKS

STFU .

gahh , im disgusted .

nobody wants to wait forever .

hanging alone .

holding on to you .

watch me .

ur always in mind , 24/7 .

peace .

rotrotrot .

(:

hanging alone .

BOOYAH(:

*fill up my cup*

walamak .

wramdon .

universal studio rocks \m/ !

maybe afterall , i just need someone to talk to .

(:

i won't waste anymore time .

*haaaaaaaaaaccccccccuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmm*

HAPPYBURFDAEKACHANG !

good , bye .

buhbye .

goodbye ?

im undecisive

heartache .

HI LANCE CORPORAL AFIQAH !

AWESOME !

cooooooooooooooooooooooool (:

MIA-ING (:

T.T

WCP ?

BACK !

smile , laugh and love my life(:

AWESOME !

UGH .

something is missing ,

yeah , YOU !

MIA-ING ?

how awesome is that ?

i won't .

fill up my cup

haaaaaaaaaaccccccccuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmm